May 20, 2012

Goblyn Issue 23a

it feels a little weird having issues come out back to back like this.
I had to completely rearrange the pages in this issue, so that the events played out a little more fluid. these events played out a little bit longer than I had anticipated and broke my personal 55 page cap rule.  but this is why I don't set a specific time for the issues to come out and only set a date.
this issue somehow feels like an intermediate to me. unlike many of the issues before, it feels less like a stand-alone story that can be attached to a larger tale, but instead really feels like part of a larger issue.
so weird.

time as I experience it is telling me that it only makes sense to go weekly. the experience of making a weekly comic makes me very much aware of how much time is passing and how quickly. in all honesty, the weeks used to speed by when I did Goblyn bi -weekly. I actually lost track of time and what day it was on many occasions. time has slowed for me somewhat, but I don't mind since there is little going on in my life at the moment beyond making stories. and it's actually quite enough, considering the events of my life in the last 15 years or so.

time and its passage used to worry me. I would worry, I didn't have enough time to finish telling my stories to the end, or that not enough people would be exposed to it, and I would vanish into that dark place that exists in the back of all artists’ minds.
but it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. it almost doesn't bother me at all. I feel like I control that passage of time... that part of my fear. when I make these comics, it's me acknowledging that we are all moving forward, including the characters in the stories. but we can all enjoy every minute, every second, and I do. that enjoyment is in direct opposition to the way I used to feel five, ten, and fifteen years ago. my fear, my panic, my personal concept of time was the driving force behind how hard I worked at making comics. but not anymore. now it is simply the enjoyment of watching the creation of this thing that brings me a ton of happiness, and ignoring the passing seconds, minutes, and hours. they just lose all meaning while I work on these comics.